It is 1:24 a.m., Jan. 10, in my apartment somewhere in Lagos, trying to stay up, sane, study, and stay alive while I am listening to random music recommendations by YouTube Music when Yellow by Coldplay came in and my brain lit up and suddenly I don’t feel too numb and hollow inside.
Music is indeed beautiful. It is the only thing that keeps me sane in this accursed world I find myself in. I listen to music an unhealthy amount of time, and the only reason I stop is when I want to deep study and need all the silence my brain and soul craves for core mental concentration.
Music is probably the second reason why I am either still sane or alive. Either way, I hope I don’t go back to that point where I feel numb to it and embrace the overwhelming internal and external darkness.